I had a surprisingly good meditation session last night! This morning's just led to a nap though haha. I think one of the key things is to release expectations and don't hope for anything. Just take things as they come.

It's going to be Day 2 out of 15 of my preceptorship tomorrow. I'm taking on one patient by myself. It's nice that I get to be so independent. I do believe that I work a lot better without having someone breathe down my neck. The only thing that makes me nervous about my preceptorship is that I don't have any careplans for them. It's a lot less thinking about what's going on with the patient, and just a lot of doing. There's really no time to think about those things, which kind of sucks because it makes me quite nervous. I've been doing two patients though so hopefully it'll be smooth with one patient. 

It's always the anxiety of things that haven't really happened that really get to me. I really hope that after a long time of meditation, I can decrease this type of anxiety by focusing on the present. There's no reason to waste time and energy being anxious over something you can't control. Rationally, I understand that, but my body doesn't seem to get it. 

I tried out the 185 rep squat regimen. Holy cow. I'm not sure if I want to stick with this. It's death. I thought I was going to pass out at one point, and my legs were like jello by the end. I'll try it for maybe two weeks, and we'll see how I feel about it. I had to drop my weights SEVERELY...like I went from squatting 110 --> 70. My pride!! Haha. This might not give me the gains for a booty, but I think it'll still help overall. Squats are so good for not just legs and butt. I attribute my fat loss in the abdomen area to squatting. I barely did ab exercises the last six months, and I lost a good amount just from squatting. Full body seems to work out better for me. I just need extra time since I'm doing one exercise per muscle group.